sick

"Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick; I came not to call the righteous, but sinners."

- Somewhere in Mark.

Yesterday, we talked about that line in my first weekly mark. Basically it says Jesus is there only for the people who need him. At a deeper level, it implies that people must acknowledge and accept that they have faults and sicknesses before Jesus can take a part in their lives.

We all then attempted to apply this to our own lives and admit our own sicknesses. But for the entire rest of mark study and the rest of the night, I searched and searched, but I could not find, let alone admit, my weaknesses.

I had a conversation with Paula, and we talked about how the lesson was very contradicting because we are always trying to reach a point of happiness and content. But by following this lesson, we are breaking through our content shell and unearthing darknesses that are hidden deep within us. Its like we are looking for trouble in times of peace. But I guess that is better than having that trouble unearth itself in times of war.

So as for my weaknesses, I still cannot fully grasp what it is exactly. I can feel a void in my heart, but I can't put into words what it is from. I just pray that I can find out what it is soon, and that when I do, that I have someone to admit it to.

Ironically, I woke up today with a small headache and a cold. I ate an orange and orange juice for breakfast and I just made a cup of Airbourne.. mmm vitamin C!